Taking A Detour

A couple weeks ago I posted on Instagram and Facebook about starting the Keto diet. I posted if “something isn’t working for you, change what you’re doing and get after it.” What many people don’t know is how much I was struggling. How much I am struggling. Trying to figure out why I never have energy and haven’t been feeling well. I felt I was making healthy changes and the way I would feel on a daily basis would reflect those changes I’ve been intentionally working on. I’ve been doing CrossFit since the beginning of July. Working out is supposed to give you this amazing energy, right? I started eating healthier the beginning of June. Fueling your body with whole foods is supposed to make you feel better and give you more energy rather then dealing with crashes throughout the day, right?? I was determined to finally put my health on one of my priority lists. What I wasn’t prepared for was having a major setback in my journey to feeling better with CVS (Cyclic Vomiting Syndrome). If anything, I thought everything would work together to make me this unstoppable person where I’d have never ending energy, I was fit, my brain wasn’t foggy, and I’d feel better on a daily basis and rarely get any episodes. I’d turn into this Super-Mom, Super-Wife, and Super-Worker. I’d be able to do everything and be exceptional at everything I put any sort of energy into. I typed up a daily schedule for myself 2 weekends ago to keep me on track and focused…and not forget about anything with the new school year starting. I wanted to make sure I stayed on top of all the mom duties, plus putting in over 40 hours of work in the week. I’m sure the good Lord is laughing at me right now. Because if anything, it’s been the complete opposite. It’s like after I typed out this schedule, God struck lightening down on me to make me ‘stop.’ Last week (the week I was supposed to implement this amazing schedule), was my worst week yet prior to starting my Chiropractic care.

So on Saturday morning, I sat down with one of the Dr’s and my husband to discuss the results of my latest scan. Before I get into my scans, one thing that I’m always baffled with, is this is the first time in my life where tests show, or can explain, exactly what I may be feeling like. I’m so used to everything always coming back ‘normal.’ Which can be good. But when you have something going on, and you KNOW something isn’t right, you want to fix it. And when things come back ‘normal,’ there’s nothing to ‘fix’ and they send you on your way to continue feeling your ‘normal’ crummy self.

But sure enough. My scans showed I was functioning back over on the sympathetic side and my body is stressed. Then they looked at what changes I’ve made since the last scan at the end of June. Which was my best scan, by the way.

Changes included CrossFit and eating Keto. And now I’m strongly recommended, in a round about way without really TELLING me what to do, is to take a detour and scale way back on everything I’ve been doing.

My husband said if he was reading between the lines of the Dr, he’s telling me to scale back from CrossFit so that we can get a good read on the causes of the major decline. He also talked to me about the Keto diet (which he started the beginning of the year, so he’s not against it by any means), but is suggesting it’s not the ‘right’ diet for me. And I’m one to take a professional opinion over my own. Plus, I wasn’t feeling well before starting Keto, if I’m being honest and paying attention to my body even more, I took a drastic decline with episode symptoms after starting to eat the Keto way. But now I hear people say it’s hard to stick with Keto long term, but I’m finding it hard to stop Keto. I guess he didn’t tell me to ‘stop’ it altogether, but that I should still implement healthy, complex carbs and natural sugars into my diet.

So I’m taking a detour. He recommended I scale back on everything, and increase my number of adjustments during the week again to get me headed back in the right direction. And then if I’m feeling better, I can add in some exercise…like yoga. But CrossFit is probably not in my cards.

I spent the weekend frustrated and irritated. I cried to my husband. I totally agreed with everything the Dr recommended, but I still don’t like it. I was out to prove myself I’m bigger then my condition. God has other plans for me, and I’m working hard on accepting that. So for now, I’m going to allow myself to just BE. And stay on top of laundry again being 3 of the days I was working out during said ‘laundry time.’ I’ll refocus my energy and re-do my daily schedule.

It was a good run. I completed the 6-week challenge and then some. I CAN do it. My body just chose to protest against it. I was able to notice positive changes not only on the outside, but also on the inside. I gained a better understanding of what ‘mindset’ truly is. I’m not finished yet. This is just a bump in the road. I’ll get myself feeling better and then find something that works for me. But first, I’m going to go eat some chocolate.

~xoxo